I want to feel loved, wanted, needed and desired. Completely accepted and valued without condition. I want to live in the bliss of constant adoration. I want to be repeatedly told what I am good at, not criticized for my failings. It seems I have been strong for too long. Instead, I surrender and fold into the warmth of your embrace. I want to let go of defending, protecting and hiding. The call of wild, unadulterated freedom is calling to me. A place where I can live in the full expression of who I am. The refusal of being ruled by shame, embarrassment, and fear.
As I imagine this way of beauty, I wonder, is there a place where we can be this way together.
- Does this place exist outside of my mind?
- Can we build this place on this earth?
Then I realize, even if you accept and love me wholly, I will still sit in judgment of myself.
The voice that says: I didn’t do enough, I am not good enough, and my body displeases me.
Somedays it whispers, somedays it screams.
This incessant nagging that I struggle to rid myself of. A voice I run from but from which I cannot sufficiently hide.
I Surrender to Find Peace
It dawns on me that I have to stop believing the lies.
I have to unplug from the Matrix. I have to see I already have and already am everything I need.
And, so are you.
We live in our own self-enforced cages of expectation, comparison, and guilt.
To truly live, we must shrug off the shackles of blame and judgment.
We must be willing to see only our magnificence. I must admire the brilliance of my human body and acknowledge my investment in a culture that seeks to destroy it.
- To feel the soul expanding, mind-blowing love and acceptance I crave, I must be willing to offer it to you and to me.
- I must finally understand that radical acceptance is the key to freedom.
That in this now moment, there can be nothing wrong, no matter how wrong it may seem.
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